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Dreamed works with a honorable lawyer. ^ At first covertly compete with my 2nd elder brother for wider social relationship. then worked as a teacher or coach for a camp whose most students are from rural.the leading mentor is a diligent lawyer with a small but reliable business. I closely watched his cases management, or filing. Later suggested him digitizing database, he admitted and working on it.I also handled a girl student who handed in her mother's application for her ailment absence. there is large bright full moon in the dawn sky when I blogging. God, grant me stable work and life space. free me of duty of academic. bring me sooner my Royal China which is my business. thx God dad.


Dream to compose music.^ my son learning music for years and mentored by his mom.in this dream his existence prevails. first I was an actor, young, tall,cool and developing. I learn from others songs and gradually starts to compose hot music.Likely kind of rap and rock, I dance with it on stage.lots of skills in composition found in dream, in visual form.then the protagonist wanted to re-furnish his audience hall,remove chinaware tilts on wall.that reminded my passed dad,God in heaven now,and his work as an architects. the hall surface decoration is decent and historical, but we due renovated accordingly. Then likely dream a professional musician, or a career of music,likely of my son's, which evading my blogging now.when I wake up its a spectacular full moon night.God,I saw my mistake under my service to my son,and I got forgiveness from my son,warrenzh, Hope of China, God of Universe, in my latest phone call last night. Thanks, Dad God, bring me sooner Asoh Yukiko, my son's mother in Japan. and my girl LYu, girl Zhou, girl TW, bring me my Royal China to be fruitful.


a surprising week. ^ this week really satisfying: my 3 tasks done in a shot. on Monday my son's mom buzzed me motorola support department informed her my broken cellphone mainboard arrived. in the night yesterday my acer notebook abrupt shutdown for overheat turns severe and I decided to fix it in local computer market. I also tracked my first real credit card, which sent me via ChinaPost, arrived. next day I waited till 1:20 PM, to allow my once workplace parcel buddy bring me the credit card as he promised, but he didn't. so I visited QRRS post office on my own, and got my mail at once. on way I can't wait to open my mail to see what it looks like a credit card I dreamed of owing one for more than a decade. Its a overseas payment card, which really fits me. in waiting room of motorola support office, I activated my credit card via phone. repairing cellphone free of charge, I love my moto xt788 even more after the accident. on way home I visited computer market and paid a smart guy clean dust in my acer notebook. I thought it works but it didn't, and even worse. in dorm in the night my computer can't last running a quarter, but I managed restore os, backup my log book, and so on successful before quit of frustrations. I desperate want to update my moto's android os, but I had to download it via expensive 3G in 4am, Tuesday. fixing overheat video card by tech crew in computer market costs me near ¥200 for my notebook, with which I hope I can rely on for another half decade. Its time to reunite my son returning from computer market. He released by his mom in her office after I informed her and waited outside of her school some time. my son joined skate kids on the ice ground in sport field nearby. its his first skate train in winter 2013. I tried to persuade my son join my larger pc games, but he rather immersed in android games on his fonepad. then we dined out, with beef noodle. I told my son I had to prepare work environment on my phone and notebook, asked for leave earlier. soon I got all done in my dorm, but I felt sorry for I put my stuff before my son's concern. the mistakes turns obvious next day, and I took action to amend it: I shopping online on my own for him, mostly snack from Japan and Taiwan via taobao, a Chinese C2C market website. God, time to leave my son alone is closer, but I won't care if I should tentatively educate he independence. I will do my best to show him ur mercy and glory heavenly, notice no private space between humans. God, dad, grant me, and my Royal China anxious free. bring me sooner my girls into my new family, Royal China, to home my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, and his siblings arriving. God, I saw cold of aging. let me stay in growing warmth, and best of all, my son's sanity of one's. thx, God dad.


my 1st real credit card with CCB. ^ in my life I usually not allowed to spend casually. so long time I dreamed a credit card, esp. buy overseas goods like domains or google services. but my hard financial situation shies me away from Chinese banks so long. after those 2 months with improved, 2700 rmb salary, I felt the need and courage to equip myself a credit card to spend cozier. so I remembered once my colleague helped us batch claimed somewhat card from China Construction Bank. I thought apply credit card from its credit database in an old card, which never used for I then too poor, would be easier. but CCB staff told me the old card expired and nothing. however she suggested her colleague, a beautiful young lady likely newly enrolled, help me apply via CCB website. I had to cheat on estate, admitted I own house of my son's mom's while we divorced in 2008. that's last Saturday. next Monday when I surfing online in dorm, I suddenly stroked by panic. In the seconds then CCB called in informing they sending a credit card to me, to my once work place in QRRS. its such a inspiration in the day! the night blessing dreams boiling long time in my shallow sleep. in dream my 2nd brother and 2nd sister, both evils in my life, in my hometown tried to flatter me upon my good news. then in university 2 alumni, YangJin and Huang Junyi, talked to me on way from canteen to dorm. Yang claimed I owed him ¥50 while I remembered before I returned from hometown I was clear of debt. but I promised to check it, or grant the debt. between the conflict of money I needed to poo but all slots in the WC in dark, I can't see any one and afraid of shits stain my shoes, an usual embarrass in my years ago dreams. God, thx for the facility, for the convenience affordable in my life now and ahead. God, dad, guide us toward peace and satisfaction. bring me sooner my Royal, Asoh Yukiko, to clear doubts on emerging Empire of China.


Dream of circus.^ Its a warm winter night. I dreamed in my hometown watching a visiting circus. I was attracted some beautiful female acrobats and bravo in English. that caused a neighbor girl among audience talked to me. we then had nice English talk and didn't notice end of the performance. returned home I found the circus holding another event near our house. my sinful cousin's family competed with me to host them. yesterday we glad to see completing video game "how to survive", all missions in the game done. my son emphasized he ushered to the end. we also tried new games lately near 1pm to dine out and shower. my son ordered his favorite food in Dico's on his own. in the public bathroom I told him my year end bonus plan and informed him uncertainty of new dining out. returned to his mom's house, I waited for half and 2 hours before my son finished homework under his mom's monitor and joined me into digital entertainment, this time is comics online. Its so beautiful the day that I hardly complain. God, dad, pl guarantee our new dinner out plan, in happy year end. bring me sooner my Royal China to home my children in coming near year.

From 2013 in gaze
From 2013 in gaze
From 2013 in gaze
From 2013 in gaze


shepherd pays.


an Autumn night drizzle. ^ yesterday full of joys with my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲. I visited him on time in sunny morning, after the annoying drill noise waked me up when the dorm recently under refurnish. we played video games and made proud progress. we dined in Dico's franchinse original from Taiwan. we showered. we bought dates, oranges and plums and enjoyed them very much. I also offered my son's mom a favor by enabled wifi access point for her students get tutorials there. I also saw beautiful females I concerned. I first time in this Autumn put on a long johns and felt comfortable at once against chill. when I roamed outside of dorm, I saw pale half round moon in sky. after I settled in front of my notebook in dorm, it started to drizzle in dusk. most of the night I rambled in dorm and reviewed the wonderful day with my son, in the rain rhythm. God, u know why lucky my life with girl LYu, my love for rain and raining. God,bring sooner my girls to allow me satisfy them, enrich my life with love with my girls. God, dad, in bizarre and humming drizzle, my Royal China under ur shine. thx, dad.


my birthday. ^ Dreamed living in a Japanese home, in surname Koda 倖田. I was likely the son, talking with mom who in kitchen while I watching in waiting room. I found an undisclosed sex book or tape of a celebrity, who in a trade for convenience. When I tried to copy those erotic photos the book gone. But after some time or years the copy reappears. The dream likely related with Asoh Yukiko, I sensed my longing and dependence on her more and more stronger this years. Then dreamed in our hometown my brother-in-law's nephew competed smartness with my son, warrenzh, Hope of China, God of Universe. Then dreamed with my cousin leading kids in village on our Hill, search gravestone to break. It's about 4 am. I tried to blog & memorize to blog. 2 later lofty dreams evade me. one haunts again but finally evaporated. my son and my grand father appears in the dream. my son likely unsatisfied with our current situation but my dad inspired us with steady hope. its my birthday today, I will bring my son ate toast buffet for dinner. God, recent weeks it got colder, my heart also weighted with old clothes and insufficient heat in dorm. while I enjoyed so much video games with my son, God, dad, please allow me more time to accompany my son's game play, not inverse. God, so splendid our life has been, please don't spoil our expectation ahead. bring me sooner my Royal China, my girl LYu, Asoh Yukiko, my girl Zhou, my girl TW, bring me home to attend my son and my children arriving. God, dad, thx for this hopeful sunny morning.


Busy days. ^ these days busy fixing son's notebook which recently virus infected. This dawn dreamed I try to invent 3 something. One for my work, the 3rd for the dorm canteen operator, a woman with her son first appeared in my dream. In crowd of a hall she invited me demonstrate the selling machine I invent. I also likely dreamed my Tibet friend, Bianbaqiongda. It's getting cold, esp in coming national holiday for most residents left the dorms and canteen out of service, let me starve or spent more in restaurant. The bitch, son's mom, accuses more and scorned harsher, a shame over my Royal China. The insane the little woman brought not insult me but my family. God, you know my situation and its history. You know what's for all these cheap persons in my life. Bring sooner my girls into my new family, God, let my life easier with beauties! ThX God.


prepared. ^ Yesterday is blessing, my salary reach ¥2327,which allows lifestyles we planned. When I handed in deposit for canteen dinners & lunches, I felt healthy relation between those operators & me. I also treated myself fruits I always liked. This dawn I dreamed on heel of a professor who tried to design a teaching building in camps alone while his ability too green-handed for the task. he burned brain to copy others blueprint and I in the dream finally got insight on originality stems from knowledge. Then dreamed with my son, warrenzh, Hope of China, God of Universe, learning something together. It's a due post & in days I prepared it. God, such a bright mooring during my blogging, ThX dad, bring me sooner my Royal China, esp Asoh Yukiko, my Crowned Queen from Japan. Last night I reviewed our days in Nankai University in 2000,God, since first encounter we belong to each other. God, these days gays surround me, block my sight of beautiful. Dad, save me from insanity, home me with my girls praying me so long like I did so long in my blog. Today I will be with my son, who in break on Tuesday afternoon. Grant us holy spirit in gathering, in video games we enjoy so much. ThX God dad.


strange dream. ^ in dawn a lengthy dream till I got up to pee. I saw the dream protagonist with his large relatives married Ma yun, founder of Ali group (www.alibaba.com) and a billionaire now, the wedding ceremony is very luxury, Mr Ma also spent lots of attention to make it a special spectacle and gorgeous. Then dreamed of my campus friend, Bianbaqiongda, a Tibetan and graduated from Tianjin fine art college where we got familiar with zealous on western fine art. I dreamed we enjoy staying, while actually we did not contact each other for more than 20 years, soon after I worked for QRRS, thousands miles from Tianjin. Yesterday was great, I talked with my son effective as usual. We spent more time in Dico's franchise in railway station before went to shower. There among travels he played video games on his pad. I asked a neighbor girl shot a photo for us. Before I left his mom's house, I persuade the woman leave our son alone to do his homework, for her companion & monitory is ineffective. It is so nice a day. Thanks God dad!
From 2013 in gaze
From 2013 in gaze
From 2013 in gaze
From 2013 in gaze


homeless from past to now, to passed.


stay with son.^ son's mom, a mean woman, now more and more turned depending on our son, and even worse, poised girl's charm in front of my son instead of a mother's. recently she also invited me to eat watermelon in her house, showing ill will that we reunite from the broken marriage since 2006 when she insisted then. God, permit my freedom far from any plots of the small woman. last night when I settled in dorm after visited my son and invited him tried new games, including "plants vs zombies 2" for android which just released yesterday, when I watching American episode "Carrie's diary" and seeking insight coincident in my son's growth, it rained outside. in the night I roamed and reviewed my son's situation quite awhile, before went to bed. I knew no one can predict my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, his future, his rebellion youth, his independent world view, but God's will guides, and I will stay near him for parenthood. in dawn dream, I clearly with my son experienced challenge in life. we held together to face uncertainty. God, thx for so long I can offer my service to my son, Hope of China, God of Universe, rid me anxious upon his growth, also his zeal upon future social perspective. dad, bring me sooner my Royal China, esp. Asoh Yukiko, warrenzh's mother from Japan, attends properly our son with love of mother. God, thx for the peaceful morning sunshine now.


Dream of befriending a cat.^yesterday a bit busy :patch my Window os. I in dawn dreamed play with a tiger or panther in front of my pals. I believe I can communicate with its soul, so I just laid and show my back to it on its usual appearing road. It works: we play together and corporate in hunting. It's also my first time try SwiftKey, so nice as a input tool. God, thanks for beast soul. Dad, sooner bring my Royal China for my wider audience, for closer my task here. God, guide me talk to my son more effective, lead him into holy spiritual sooner, once and forever. ThX God dad!


normal life shared with son starts.^ last week a bit busy. my son and me enjoyed new video game very much. he immersed in "castle storm" with great interest, while I relentlessly trying various new games from stock. yesterday I dreamed in dawn my senior middle school alumnus, Wanglewen, who buzzed me once when my alumni from Huanggang middle school collectively trying to help me out of my current shabby financial situation, led me and shown how hard he with his wife finding job and making livings. we meet aside Yangtze river and I in dream felt better clinching to my current status, leisure even low currency. this dawn I dreamed closely watched a Taiwan woman entrepreneur, likely HTC founder Miss Wang, operating her business. God, thx for recent exciting new video games. bring me sooner my Royal China to show my son and myself the difference between real world and digital virtual world. dad, thank u for perfection vein in our blood.


a spectacular day. ^ yesterday is marvelous. I ate breakfast in canteen in dawn. dorm is cool & uncomfortable when window is open. then my QRRS office informed me to fetch a shirt they dispatched, likely for annual sports game event. afternoon sunshine arrived. I dozed in warm sunshine and dreamed educating my nephew, Zhaikang, spiritual wakeup. the dream interrupted by 2nd buzz from office. this time I got a bonus of ¥400. visiting son with those gifts before dusk and we immersed in video games after his dinner and homeworks, till near 8pm I returned to dorm. this dawn I dreamed lots of erotic scenes, including a girl I concerned ported in my passed dad's house. her clothes missing and I insisted half-naked to enter room to see her. the only store in the village refused to sell us clothes to put up the girl who accompanied by my 2n elder sister in the room. there once a girl ported in my old family a night, when I studied in Huanggang middle school, a mightily academic smart girl, a LYu, now a professor in virus, invited my host in the summer vacation but never back to me in the rest of my senior middle school. Its a sunny morning. God, thx for these beautiful days. bring me sooner my Royal China and closer to my dreams. dad, God, please allow my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, make full use of his digital gears, ie. his fonepad, kindle. let me pave way for his virtual world tours.


Dream of shooting movie.^ In deep dawn dream I told Wang Xionghui, my high school and campus aluminum, my plan to direct a youth movie from our elite senior middle school life,our passionate classroom plots. he listened carefully on dorm bed, shared memory of classmates and teachers. yesterday busy with blogging and now saw the light. God, thx warmth in people heart around me. affirm me in new adventure ahead.

From 2013 in gaze
From 2013 in gaze
From 2013 in gaze
From 2013 in gaze


raining hard in northeastern China, while we in our first flight vacation in central China.


Reunion soon after settled. ^ So again my Dorm life started,since I returned from impressive hometown tour.my son asked to dine toast Buffet and we did last night. the night the small bed let me uncomfortable, and likely so was warrenzh. in dawn I dreamed 3 metaphors and adopted them to avoid tangle with my son in dream. then dream another 3 metaphors about ants or something. then my sinful cousin, long time bureaucrat, led his sons cutting tree.2 of his sons clinched to a branch and broke it, and fell to ground together. I with my son escaped from been hit, and found herds of ants leaving the branch. God, thx the night of reunite, thx the travel so beautiful. engage me with meaningful life, dad God, bring me new family, Royal China.


tour ending. ^ dreamed first ants attracted an amateur performance team or workers contest. I with colleagues research ants behavior, trying distracting it but ant teams moving rapid. then dream I admired a hero trophy, rather than collective medal. I dreamed during I left my previous job in TV or media, a guy self-learned and won a honor in his field. when my previous workmates invited me to return, I at a loss,comparing with self-made success.
yesterday especially remarkable: I with my son visited Yangtze river, closely on her bank. its after we barbered. then we visited my passed eldest sister's missing village along the river while the local mountains boosts stone products, inc cement and fertilizer. they are so meaningful. it started to drizzle after we returned to my 3rd elder sister's house, our hometown tour lodges. it's a beautiful day!
God, time to farewell. thank you for the journey, bring us safe home. bring me sooner my Royal China to allow me busy or engaged. thx, dad.


dreamed of colleagues. ^dreamed an once QRRS colleague,a fake hooligan kidnapped me. yesterday we survived Internet down a day. we paid to use a neighbor's Wi-Fi,but the narrow headed neighbor more and more lost in jealous,tentatively drew Internet out. so I brought my son and his nephew hanging out,play volleyball and basketball with kids in the community.we had good time. in dusk warrenzh made debut demonstration of large 3D video game on his pad,an Asus fonepad. we made friends there,including girls. God, bring us Internet!


warrenzh's hometown friends. ^ son, warrenzh these days experience strong love and friendship. I hope he emotionally grows in this hometown tour. this dawn dreamed I was in campus trying bring my dad wines. on way I and my son stopped and inspected in police office.they checked our parcel, took out memory card from my camera. fortunately they later compensate us a harder micro storage block for camera. it's morning now, God, bless us sound and meaningful progress.


dreamed of once workspace. ^ dreamed of my passed dad,God in Heaven now, smiling and encourages me with my work.then in QRRS, my previous work space, the youth league preparing a contest. I took the multimedia design as my job for granted, for we coordinated several times events familiar, but the young man in charge told me among crowd in his office contemptuously that they only need me typing title. then I in a panic for my camera missing, till my dearest son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, was found rip it from me in advance wisely. God, dad, u always sustain me in innocence. bring us peaceful to place u assigned me, bring sooner my Royal China to enrich me and people I deeply concerned. thank U, God.


dreamed of American workmate. ^ half of planned hometown tour passed. this dawn dreamed trusted by government to inspect 3 parcel express companies in China, shentong, yuanfeng, shunfeng, with a tall and thin white instructor from US. i can requisition any computer in the office during report, and office staff there Co-operative, even sometimes reluctant. yesterday i visit dad's old house in Zhudajiu, with my son. my brother-in-law carried us with his motor.most villagers welcome us heartedly. at noon we returned to Tianzhen, my beloved sister's house. an old woman died in dusk. due to Chinese mourning day, lots of crackers lightened and paper of fake money burned, in a custom hoping to transmit to their passed ancestors, a rather ugly Chinese culture. it didn't rain for weeks, until the day before yesterday a sudden and short rainstorm. God, now we grateful for the journey, bring us sooner to our normal life,bring sooner my royal China and my sons and daughters.


dreamed of wedding. ^ its our first week in my hometown tour. so far so good. this dawn dreamed a lot. on way to Zhudajiu for a wedding I battled with a monster blocking us under a car.then dreamed in a classroom I with my son waiting dispatched dumplings to eat. God, bless us a wonderful journey before we missing old life. bring me sooner my Royal China in peace.


dreamed of life among soldiers of US and Taiwan. ^ its 3rd day i with my son live in my sister's house during our hometown tour. this dawn dreamed lived among American and Taiwan soldiers, witness their training, entertainment. i also join to study in Taiwan, wrote to their president, Mr Ma, all under PRC's surveillance. its a peaceful morning, dad God, bless us a wonderful journey!


before the hometown tour, elations ^ this week too busy, for I eventually equipped my son a tablet, Asus Fonepad Me371, and he admits his new smartphone, a moto xt788, shift to my usage. in this way he can play more android games on the tablet which has 16 gb storage while moto smartphone only has 2 gb. I love my moto very much, for with apps I can do many transactions on it, like web shopping, blogging, reading, etc. my son reserved upon the great gift, but I know he is excited. this morning I dreamed of my old workmate in QRRS cable TV. we was trusted to make a promotive video for a celebrity. a famous voice actor, a girl in family name Gao, invited to co-operate with us. the celebrity's team leaving via train, while my once monitor, a guy in family name Sun and several years older than me, gossip about the VIP during farewell. recently I enjoyed dusks more in QRRS Dorms, and that invited many hatred against my leisure from residents in the community mostly workers or local hooligans. God, my task here means much, including dangers, savage and save. God, dad, glory of my Royal China untouchable in ur shine. God, grant us a successful hometown tour in this weekend. bring my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, immerses in peace and complacent of home.
From warrenzh's bear eyes upon hometown, Zhudajiu, Hubei Prov
From warrenzh's bear eyes upon hometown, Zhudajiu, Hubei Prov
From warrenzh's bear eyes upon hometown, Zhudajiu, Hubei Prov
From warrenzh's bear eyes upon hometown, Zhudajiu, Hubei Prov
From warrenzh's bear eyes upon hometown, Zhudajiu, Hubei Prov


new shinny being.


dreamed of flying. ^ my passed mother appeared in down dream. she likely welcome my son. then we hanged in a library, where warrenzh tried to hide his shoes among books. then the hero, the protagonist in dream flying over river styx with a branch of tree. he had to constantly cut off creatures attempting attach to the branch traveling high speed. he is legendary hero in the dream, like Titan or Apollo. last dusk I didn't visit my son, but rested a long time in QRRS Dorms' garden. I enjoyed the breeze and sky and trees on the bench. I reviewed experience when I trapped in asylum, where some kind woman doctor and nurses treated me well. I saw environment for mental patients decaying and more and more mental disordered patients canned in highly condensed space, worsen their recovery process. last Sunday my son enjoyed video game, "Heavy Fire Afghanistan", with company of 2, including me and visiting girl relative there for his mom's English tutorial. we broke 3 levels, or completed 3 missions. God, hometown tour is near, grant us a successful journey as planed and budgeted. bring me sooner my Royal China, my family life after near 8 years' singling out. thx Dad, God, in thise sunny morning.


dreamed of divorced with gay. ^ last night I again exploded with the bitch, my son's mother, a cheap soul with bad tempers, when I tried to play video game with my son while his mom forced him to practice e-piano with which he always reluctant. the night is blessing, for new clothes for our hometown tour prepared by my nephew, who operates a shop online, arrived. we enjoyed short pants, son additional with his T-shirts, in great joys. after we put on, son suggested hangout, we caught in drizzle outside. I asked my son, Hope of China, God of Universe, his forgiveness if I misunderstood his ordain, and he allows it. the rain since then till this dawn. I dreamed in dawn I was engaged with a dog soul, my son's uncle who once joined PRC's army, and threaten me when I quarreled with his cousin, my son's mom, when we just in engagement, for she disrespect my ring for her. his family prepared quite some fortune to bind his marriage, but I, in the dream protagonist, dissolved the engagement before wedding. the dog family all at a loss in their failure to cheat to maintain a relation. after woke up in dawn rain, I saw clear time to ditch my son's Chinese mother turning riper and riper. my nephew's help is a good start and an icon of change. my son asked to sleep when his mom monitored practice ended, just before I invited him to play game again but refused by the bitch woman. God, save my son from incompatible in his parents' marriage, keep him united from conflicts &apart. bring me sooner my Royal China, esp. Asoh Yukiko, my Taiwan girl, my girl LYu, my girl Zhou, to home my princes and princesses. God, dad, haul sooner the dirty house off my son and I was set in for more than 10 years. thx dad, in this beautiful raining morning.
napped again after breakfast in rain rhythm, dreamed my parents, esp. my mother as hostess, welcome a world election of pongtiff among kids. I busy with something and later curious our kids, ie. my kid brother, my nephew, or my son, their luck in the election. the chosen is a kid of my other relative. when I teased my kid in my dream, he upset and throws steel lamp plate at me, which let me laugh till my sides split. I saw my hope in my son, warrenzh, Hope of China, God of Universe, in the end before I woke up. that's my faith unshakeable. God, thx the plenty rain of batism. grant us a smooth hometown tour in next month.


dreamed of being prodigy. ^ recently busy with setup my son's new smartphone and rarely nap. in this noon nap I felt loneliness as a prodigy, or my son's, being incomparable gifted son. my grandfather saw us when I or my son experiences being genius and the huge sadness of loneliness singled him out. the protagonist learned to sew with the grandma, his great findings in math, his unable to be recognized by peers. he was constrained in loneliness within his family. fortunately his dad and grandpa both sees the situation of the son and help with his best. Its a brilliant afternoon. I'm recently so happy with our first smartphone, a moto xt778, that constantly in high mood. my son, equipped with his first gear and second cellphone, spent lots of time tried video games on the andorid smartphone. God, u see our passionate and merry in the world ahead of our pinched situation, esp financially. God, dad, grant us peaceful mind with elated emotional life, esp. in coming hometown tour, my son's first since his bare open eyes. dad, God, bring me sooner my Royal China to home my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, hope of China, God of Universe, and my children arriving. God, thx.


dreamed of preparing a wedding. ^ in dawn dream I programed automatic broadcast of a living wedding in a TV station, like I once did. the wedding is very important and I want it perfect. but before the firework session the transition was unsuccessful. I tried to make it work correct but my workmate gave up for their clumsiness, and switched manually to let it runs. I hate manual operation but admit chance of testing run out. yesterday I first time thought about how to make use of remnant of fund for coming hometown journey with my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, as after familiar with travel portal online like ctrip.com or qunar.com, I found in time bidding can save lots from flight order. cheap flight cost only ¥1100, comparing regular price 1600 RMB. and my another senior middle school alumnus promised offer us flight of return for free. I researched tablet, smartphone and finally attracted by motorola XT778, with which I bought online soon and prompt. then I visited son with the good news, also hoping our new xbox wireless gamepad bought earlier online arrived. but it didn't. my son peacefully accepted my gift for him, but he reveal his first consideration of wishlist is a tablet, among smartphone, digital camera and tablet I promised him in his youth. I beat him in video game "Might & Magic: clash of heroes" and he cried miserable, before his mom forced us to hangout, and glad to allow my leave after triumph over me when we returned his mom's house and retried the pc game. I offered 2 homeless men some small changes on way. it drizzled when I on way returned to QRRS Dorms. God, this week full of hopes. pl allow feast of us reaches us sooner. thx God, dad, surely u grant us a smooth and graceful hometown tour.

From 2013 in gaze
From 2013 in gaze
From 2013 in gaze
From 2013 in gaze


sheering light


blue days. ^ yesterday I was blue. it started with brilliant sunshine, drizzled at noon, pale sunshine afternoon, drizzled again when I returned from visiting my son in his mom's house. in the day QRRS canteen shown ugly teeth upon its service to me: 3rd times or 4th times to tentatively cooked tasteless food, ie fishes I ordered. I knew enemies of my Empire of China plots it, summon all cadres or bureaucracy against me. when I reviewed the hostile my Royal China was set among, I felt deep sorrow for my son, Hope of China, God of Universe. his mom, I recently first time noticed how tiny she is bodily, almost a dwarf, a puppet of her vicious mother, a pair hardcore lesbians, more and more desperately occupied my son's time by gossips to separate him from me, when we played video games. last Friday she brought sheerly him to watch a free movie in cinema during our routine reunion in weekends and my son got vomiting, likely insanity of his mom's emotion hurt him. on Sunday night when I played a shooting pc game with my son, she stepped in and gossip with my son aside, trying intimacy that's dirty over my son. I quit game soon and escaped to waiting room, where I rambled and looked back my once marriage with her and saw more sure I never and will not like her, such a poor qualified woman. during break after her usual accusation of my history of asylum, I told my son love is the most private affair and I have so far not such thing to teach him live. I urged him pursue love in his life ahead, and educate his children more sound and fruitfully. I told my son why his mom's house doesn't prepare him a space, the only 2 beds none for him in youth, but for guest or couples, both deep concern of the dark and pompous grandma's. this dawn I dreamed I was in a formation between 2 contesting groups. Its hard to be standing above. God, dad, save my Royal China from poison and pollution. bring me sooner my girls to home my son warrenzh 朱楚甲, and my children arriving. thx God, in this blessing morning light.


dreamed of paying a visit to my hometown.^ those days I usually sticked my feet out of quilt to sleep, and sometimes mid night cold filled my bladder more frequent. in this dawn dreamed I returning to my hometown village, Zhudajiu. I dwelt a lot on the dam, where nearby a cult temple attracted more visitors passing the bank. then under the dam some villager got a large lobster or something strange. then on way near the village, 2 women, one is my uncle, one is a wife of her neighbor, told me the loneliness of my parents and ate food I brought till the remnant of bread found sandy. likely my siblings adopted a boy soon died drove more usual friends of my parents away, left my parents suffer loneliness more severely. I soon woke up and got see how my parents looked forward me and I failed them in time. I saw enemies of my family constantly plots against the glory of my old family. God, dad, u see I was on way to accomplish this since years I fought for my love, for my due life's satisfying story. dad, God, grant me more freedom in the forging new Empire of China of 1109 years. promise me sanity of my Royal China. thx dad God.


busy weeks. ^ past week too busy to review. I finally got oversea payment method via tenpay, and renewed family domains twice, with borrowed ¥500 from the dorm canteen operator. then immersed in old game, 'heroes: clash of heroes', with my son. I told him about war, defense and strategy. my salary in the month arrived later, under expectation, only ¥2100 while last month its 2700 RMB. I had to manage to cope with all loans shabbily. however, my son still enjoy the Friday night with me in dorm. we ate KFC, warrenzh got a toy, a windmill. KFC doesn't sell birthday pack upset him, but he soon cheered up after weeping. he again reluctant to join me bathing in public spa, where we had haircut. my kid brother who managed a small business of pins product in southern China. he let our sister invited me with my son visit him in coming summer vacation. God, we mean it, a tour includes flight and train highway. God, equip us with adequate travel preparation. God, bring me sooner my girls, my Royal China sooner to complete us. dad, I owe u in ur promise of peace and glory in coming 1109 years of China Empire reset ahead.
in afternoon nap dreamed of corporate and community media war among my colleagues and my old family's foes in Zhudajiu Village. I witnessed merciless competition inside and outside of my social circle as well as tribal neighbors. Its a windy afternoon. God, dirty family of my son's mom, as in visiting guests, pests now my son, guard my Royal China, God dad.


safety of son.^ yesterday really busy. my backup index damaged again. it cost me rescan near 50 dvds till find backup, in my son's mom's house. the woman more and more revengeful in jealous and brought my son alone defying my reunion with my son. the afternoon I replaced av software on warrenzh's dell notebook after previous license expired. I also immersed in assassination video game, Mark of Ninja, made proud progress till son returned outside and joined to resolve the problem in the game. we late played his recent favorite game, Sacred Citadel. returned to dorm, frequent abused children cases in sinking PRC lawless reminded me possible danger my son encountered. he recently already shown reluctance under my guide to ride his new bike. now it time to let go my severe coach once made my son cried last Monday over his new adventure with bike. God, now a sunny morning outside. I just dreamed stayed with my son longest for his real concern, for his sake. God, u know my concerns. bring me sooner my Royal China, my Empire of China to make it more hospitable. God, save my Royal China, people I concerned from murdering sea on PRC breaking apart.


most beautiful dream, and soul soup.^ recently a bit busy with trying oversea payment. this dawn a special dream warms me a lot. dreamed my kid brother and my old parents sustained in adversity. in year end I returned to my hometown village, where my old parents lived through tough challenges, esp from my uncle's family. their 1st son, a teacher then turned bureaucrat, lived well among sinful Chinese government, and his 3 sons brought quite some beautiful girlfriends and enjoyed the lunar holiday. I passed their house and congratulated them even bitter. but then I heard my parents worried severely about if my kid brother committed suicide, for his poor academic score and beat our elder sister, a cheap messy woman. I also felt anxious. then I found my kid brother returned from another road my grand father prepared on other side of the village to our house. he brought some soldiers to celebrate lunar new year together. I teared and swore to my parents we brothers will bring a legion of friends includes girlfriends when we realize ourselves in future. in that our family bond forges again. Its sunny now. God, dad, bless my Royal China, bring sooner my new family to home my son, warrenzh and his sisters and brothers to come.

From 2013 in gaze
From 2013 in gaze
From 2013 in gaze
From 2013 in gaze
From baby's works update
From 2013 in gaze


loving is the Sun.


beautiful weekends. ^ last weekends sees growth of my son's dexterity and mental strength. he cried twice for burden too heavily under limelight when we played badminton in southern park near his mom's house, where herd of leisure people gathered in sunset. I told him be strong, and also saw my space to train his sports like badminton. his mom more and more bitter in losing and revenge, turns more insane against my reunion with my son. but not all starry scenes below us. last dusk a tall man, a gay dog, approached us when my son finished badminton with me and rest along the tablet for lost Chinese against Japan's invasion half century ago, trying babble with us while his real intention is to profane my son, by almost facing my son directly like a seasonal bitch. we didn't welcome him and least replied him who brag his grandson's badminton skill trained by him. my son later had to climb to higher rim of the tablet to shift the bitch's dirt. we made friends among kids there played and sometimes played with us. God, these days I determined to accept cloudy days as blessing. God, dad, u show me the bliss affirmatively in last night's drizzle, after a cloudy afternoon. God, dad, thx so much. free my Royal China humiliation, keep us intact among insane PRC. God, dad, clearer is see our promised future, esp upon new land of Japan and China here and upper. God, this sunny morning means so much in our positive.


dreamed of police.^ dreamed in dorm in Nankai Univ., where I later found my radio, and a camera or video editor worth 2000 bucks or more, stolen. my alumni, Yuncaigui, a guy now still in asylum in Tianjin near our campus, or Chencao, a guy from my hometown and referred previously in my blog, tried to calm me and discussed how to deal with it. we visit police office downstairs when they having meeting. a policeman left, likely deal the case but later found intact. after inquest he told me I was recorded as mad and not allowed to sue. I had to ask somebody else to report my loss. I felt the absurd of the rule and deep dark water behind state security. last dusk I visited my son with rechargeable battery for our new wireless k/m combo and played video game with it. I also bought him KFC. its so nice a gathering that I felt assured from Holy. God, dad, sinful eyes fix on my Royal China. God, dad, fix any problem upon ur son's family. bring me sooner my girls and sons and daughters to seed our land. thx u, dad.


dream of the only lost life of my Nankai alumni. ^ in dawn dream we graduated &packing to leave the campus. when I fetching my package from dorm where some sophomores chatting, my lower berth classmate, Xiao Jingdong, who committed suicide years ago in hard living with his parents tired to support him so long, grinned to me when I offered him fruits. lots of funs, also dreamed of burden of academic, during graduation. Its a sunny morning. God, last night moon is second newest in the month. promise me to allow me accompany my son heartedly, anxious free. Dad, I saw ur promise, and continue support. thx, God dad.


dreamed of smart people.^ in dawn dream Warren Buffett befriended me, dined together &told me about successful investment. later dreamed of a guy in Zhudajiu, nephew of a smart bureaucrat referred in my previous blog, with whom I urged advantage of freelancer, when I searched out for my kid brother, or kid I deeply concerned, who evaded me for my carelessness over him. I found him in a play house where he just slept in a closet uncomfortable and fed him with food I brought. It snowed yesterday, and still cloudy this morning. I love the fresh air after rainy snow. God, u know how I look forward joys ahead. bring me sunny time when I live with my girls under Royal China.


dreamed of campus life with my son, warrenzh.^ this dawn dreamed a lot. dreamed with my dearest son, warrenzh 朱楚甲,in Nankai Univ. where our school in military training. my once girl friend, a Liu in family name, with whom I kept love relation for more than 2 years and broke up in junior, revenged me and not allow my son in our queue close to me when we had rally lesson. most of my alumni watched it with smile. my heart full of proud with my son who is so cute. sometimes my son's mom turns his mom, emakingir in dream instead of the Liu. we likely trained to encounter dangers. the day before yesterday I loaned to buy my son a short white keyboard included in a combined wireless pack with mouse, for my son recently interested in keyboard pc games, like "Torchlight 2". we both glad with the gift. last dusk I visited him. his mom brought him outside to try scooter, my son almost mastered it. I shot some photos when they played in the nearby garden. his mom kept him busy with homework quite some time before we played "Torchlight 2", but we finally got touch the co-op video game near 7pm. we immersed in surprises and actions. God, when I can have another larger LED TV for our video game. dad, bring me sooner my Royal China and my other sons and daughters!

From 2013 in gaze
From 2013 in gaze
From 2013 in gaze
From 2013 in gaze


shiny love in air for blessing.


falling bitch. ^ last night visit my son. his mother cursed me &threaten banning me reuniting son in her house. the night we didn't play video games as usual. I just waited while his trifle mom accompany him doing homeworks. when roaming alone in waiting room, I felt so lucky to dump her, the cheap messy bitch. I pray God shows me my choice so righteous, praying my son witness the end of evil in the woman. later his mom allow him watching animation online, he pushed me out of his screen as usual. but I notice many half naked woman in the Japanese animation, so I warned my son's danger of porn. on way leaving the house, God assured me intact of my son's sanity among the bitch woman's dirty environment. this dawn I slept deep, dreamed a lot about my campus life in Nankai Univ. on way back from check-in QRRS card reading system, I still felt the shame and dirty being cursed by the bitch, my son's mom, who nowadays more and more frequently called me freak. God, dirty in her mouth has to be swallowed by the spiller. save my happy time with my son in our weekly reunion. God, bring sooner my Royal China to allow me housing my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe. God, dad, thx for the peace after shames of being cursed by falling demon.


family got 7th domain, faezrland.me. ^ family got 7th domain, faezrland.me. ^ God don't let us anxious about things definite. after help my kid brother get his new domain, faezrland.co, I felt its time to claim my family a domain for my father, who bring out the domain spiritually, faezrland, back when I was trapped in asylum while my kid brother visiting us from southern China he hard earned for several years, in my adversity to battle evils against my son &my vested glory on the earth. the reason I so late to claim faezrland for my grand dad, God in Heaven now, is that I had urgent domains to serve, like what we had, be21zh.org for our 1109 years' Empire of China rebirth, zhuson.com for US and China under God's shine, benzrad.us for myself, warozhu.com/wozon.net/woz.fm for my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, in his title explicit gracious. at that time I felt faezrland is a far dream for my dad in Heaven. but in the process of register faezrland.co for my kid brother, I felt the urgency to claim my own faezrland, for due protection, for the holy presence. the next days I tried to contact people in my social circle for fund. refuted twice, the 3rd one I reached out, my senior middle school and also my Nankai Univ alumnus, offer hand within seconds' exchange of words. God, I saw the sunshine since the day U promised me. God, help us grasp firmly our web property. bring me sooner my Royal China, bring my offspring prosperous!


dreamed wounded by iron wire. ^ this days very busy with setup my kid brother's new domain, faezrland.co. I felt its a great triumph to explore great product like zoho standard suite for enterprise. yesterday afternoon I visit my son with elation. he was proud of his progress in video games &gabbled a lot. this morning I felt sleepy for check-in QRRS, my once and long time employer. in doze I dreamed my foot hurt by iron wire. after checked carefully, I pull out the uneven wires in flesh and pains gone. God, my time is ripe for Royal China. bring my girls, esp. Asoh Yukiko, my Crowed Queen from Japan, my Taiwan girl who once so near to me, into my life in praying sooner. God, grant me a new domain for my passed grand dad, God in Heaven now, and my vested land promising. thx God.


Chinese mafia gathering beyond me. ^ yesterday visited my son as usual &made proud progress in video game "borderlands 2". told my son I more and more upset by Chinese, esp. insane PRC. for recently I saw local mafia shown more recklessly to prey. one of my Nankai Univ alumnus also invited to meet me when his train journey porting Qiqihar. he lived hell &trying influencing my life's choice with humiliation. I more and more felt the ruling party, like its tyranny, was in flame and gaining speed spinning around, begging Chinese society in PRC help putting off its burning fur, as well as fat under skin after eras of indulged power, robbery &whoredom . It doomed to die in fire baptism, and new China Empire under my title emerging as freedom of Chinese under God's shine. this dawn dreamed of my kid brother in southern China, who operating a small business & recently helped me twice, paid a year registration of my son's 3rd domain, woz.fm, paid my order to replace my 2 wrecked shoes online. I dreamed the sinful cousin, eldest son of my dad's eldest brother, a fell bureaucracy preyed his patriots, like most cases in Chinese history the way northwestern dominator did upon whole China, and my parents and his villagers suffered. when I was busy with fixing my gears, my mother came and told me my kid brother dying after suffering. I let her shut up, for I don't believe. God, this is my prayer today, rid my kid brother zombie hanging around him, stop sinful blood thieves, due to my brother's weak will to live up, on him. God, dad, u see our fate of family, lighten up our road toward ever grace. God, bring me sooner my Royal China, glorifies my son's life with honey and pleasure. God, peace in my praying in this morning sunshine!


dreamed of designing active books. ^ in dawn dream I started a small business. then transfered into printing industry. my kid brother or I wrote 3 very original books. I designed interactive form to display it. one is display on different parts of a panel. another is feeding with string, like tape recorder. I almost succeeded on it before woke up. yesterday a bit busy till near 7 pm. I guessed my son should return from his mom's hometown tour. so I buzzed, my son gave me a healthy welcome on air. I visited him with his dell notebook I fetched before his tour against thief. he played a turn of video game, "dungeonland". returned to dorm, I watched a sci-fiction episode about kids with super-power. the evil neighbor hit the thin wall again. I felt the chill &went to bed after 11 pm. God, Its so nice normal life resumes ahead, and so gracious morning light outside now. bring me my Royal China sooner to allow my honeymoon with my girls in time. God, grant us saintly life and family along life time.


dreamed of my parents &academy. ^ in dawn dream my parents appeared. I too liked to lingering at home and forgot when the winter vacation ends. so I buzzed Nankai Univ. and informed I should return to campus no later than Feb 6. but the date was Feb 6 or later. so I asked my parents, esp. my dad, help me find excuses. my parents granted. nightmare of academy rewinds.
my son told me he losing fancy upon video games. God, I hope the day he leaving me alone to video game later. God, I can't afford him more pleasure currently. God, show us the clear and bright road to achievement, glory, and peace. now his mom will soon bring him on board to visit her relatives in other city. God, bring him a shiny way to enjoy life on the earth.

From 2013 in gaze
From 2013 in gaze
From 2013 in gaze


gold egg bathed in sunshine.


hurt by Chinese air pollution. ^ since last Sunday dining out with son, my throat hurt by well-known Chinese smoky air all over the country and now sneeze, too. in dawn dreamed of living in campus or QRRS dorm. my bed in a corridor. my once QRRS colleague, also the best man of my first civil wedding, WangChangqing, also lived there. then dreamed in family I tried too many times to release hot water for some usage from heat pipe, and broke the inside plastic tube. Its urgent otherwise the heat water will run cross the house, so I hasted to ask my 3rd sister's attention for help. now its a bright morning, I sign-on QRRS check-in system, ate breakfast in dorm canteen. my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, glad to chat with me last night online, likely for I help him find a long time missing video game. God, bring me my girl LV, Asoh Yukiko, girl Zhou, my Taiwan girl sooner aside me, bring out our prosperous offspring in time. thx God dad!


dreamed of hometown, Wuxue. ^ in dawn dreamed first in Zhudajiu, my passed dad's village, where disgusting toilet again harassed me. when I strongly reluctantly entered it and poo, a middle aged doctor and 2 young ladies hovering around me and continuous chatting with me. all of them r villagers there. then dreamed in the town, Wuxue's bus station, those lazy and loosing ticket sale women peeking into my purse. and I had to frequently dug my purse and anxious about thieves there. Its likely the first work day QRRS, my once and long time employer, and a state-owned company, adopted card check-in system. I arranged ring in the night and It woke me up this morning. so far I succeeded sign-on in the morning crowd and now returned to dorm to open a new day in front of my notebook. God, dad, please show me sooner my Royal China, bring sooner my other children in heaven now. please let my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, enjoy the life and cozy of Internet as I do. that's my prayer in this smoky morning after shallow snow.


dreamed working together with son. ^ in dawn dreamed I worked with my son on a legacy system. I tried hard and completed the missing function of the old application. so my son and I was enrolled by the company. then my previous workmate called in informing QRRS, my long time employer adopted card check-in system, so hope I can sign on twice a day with the employee card. I was idle so I visited old office and filed to director for a desktop. now I surfing via corporate lan on my notebook. God, I looking forward bliss in the sunny day, grant me opener workspace step by step. God, dad, thx for recent good time with my son, with my workload. bring me sooner my Royal China to allow our glamorous task on the planet, in corner of world by China mainland.


dreamed of my Japanese girls. ^ the dorm is warm. in dawn dreamed 2 Japanese girls in my life. one is the actor, Jutani Nami, from a Taiwan episode "爱无限" I deeply touched, the another is Asoh Yukiko, my Crowned Queen. I managed harmony between them when we dwell each together. our parents also appeared before our wedding ceremony. Asoh more self-preserved and I in dream more trying appealing to her. we also attending birth school. we had good time in love. God, time of life passing, where is our family life with my Royal China? yesterday is first day of son, warrenzh 朱楚甲's winter vacation. son more or less anxious about his school performance which so far less impressive. God, all bliss is over his living on the earth.


dreamed of being a boiler man. ^ in dawn dreamed life of an elder boiler man. he tried to make friend of 2 girls, a Japanese girl, a Chinese girl, in campus, first by inviting the Chinese girl help him washing his clothes with reward. then found his wife and child ages missing. then closely witness the Japanese girl's life: her mother, her classmates, etc. later I visit her school with red wine and shared with her. likely I felt in love with her.
these days I busy with son, warrenzh 朱楚甲's new sites, www.woz.fm , designed it a logo, updated family sites with new sidebar &footer to include new member sites link. Chinese censorship delayed my operation heavily, but thanks God, it done. and also with my son made proud progress in our video game. God, u see the prize of my joy on the root of the planet. bring me sooner my Royal China, God dad!


dreamed of my company, Dragon Horse. ^ dreamed I worked first for a company and pivoted a project with my smartness even not brightest. then build a company of my own for ignorance of the company I worked for. the company name is 骥, or Dragon Horse. Its first product is the rebuild of the project I previously contributed to. then the old larger company competed and tried to occupy our land by crushed with machine and cultivated our borderland. then dream my company worked on high technology I now didn't recall, but its vivid and lengthy in dawn dream. I only remembered I worked hard and enjoy it, within my company. yesterday I visit my son in the afternoon. we played video games and I taught my son about team works when he too haste to edge me out in the shooting game. when I returned to QRRS dorms, I penniless except some changes for bus. I tried to borrow a meal in a nearby restaurant where I frequented and it loaned me several times, but this time the girl casher definitely denied. however, I managed to eat a dinner loaned by another small restaurant. God, today I likely had to live with only a meal, or even worse, for my son's mom said when she cursed my visit her house will be empty today, in aim to evade me. God, bring me sooner my Royal China to home me and my sons. God, thx Dad. in this draining Chinese holiday season in PRC, sinking IS not me but the floating and hardly wrecked nation, PRC. God, save me from drift in the chill driving scattered Chinese, toward save or seize of death. God, sure is the sunny morning outside. God, blessing my 2013 and its 1st day today.

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